Chapter 21: Home & Marriage​; Ft. McArthur & Tight On Money

People were scurrying about, but not in retreat.

There were no bunkers, no sound of canons or weapons, no booby traps to defeat.

No snipers in trees taking a peak.

Didn’t see any bodies without arms, legs or feet.

No helmeted men with AK-47s jumping from the heat.  

No smell of cordite in the air, none in the street. (Some words from: It’s A Pretty Good Day So Far.)

Finally, I had made back it to the Promised Land. I was on United States soil!

When I called Marty from the airport at SFO (San Francisco International) she didn’t recognize my voice; hadn’t heard it in more than a year.

Judy In Disguise (With Glasses) played as I rushed through the corridors for a commercial jet that would get me soonest to Wilmington, North Carolina. With the unpleasant reception, I got at the airport, I’m not sure that I would have worn my uniform on the flight, had it not been required to get the substantial military discount.

Knowing the date and scheduled time of my arrival, members of Marty’s family and local citizens (remembering I‘d worked in Wilmington) had assembled a group of one-hundred or more at the airport where they gave me a hero’s welcome. 

I awoke from that dream not long after I touched down. It was just Marty at the airport, and that was good enough for me, the girl I’d been dreaming of my entire time in Vietnam.

After more than a year apart, the girl who had waited for me was now standing in front of me, even more beautiful than I had remembered. Marty was tall and thin with sparkling blue-green eyes, short bleached blond hair, and was in love with me. She was 18, I was 20.

We were wed the next afternoon, one day after my arrival. The ceremony was conducted in a spare bedroom of the preacher’s house who married us. There had been no bridal or wedding shower, no gifts of any kind, just advice.

All of three people attended. Unfortunately, one was Marty’s aunt “Hill” who kept squawking in her shaky ninety-year-old sounding voice, “Don’t forget to pay the preacher,” In my ear, one minute later “Don’t forget to pay the preacher.” To get her to shut up, I palmed him a five-dollar bill before the vows.

Marty was not in a formal gown, but radiant. She had a nice yellow gold wedding band for me. For her, I had a small silver-gold ring to match the engagement diamond she had already lost. She said it was swept up by the surf, on the shores of the Atlantic, while playing with her little niece.

We headed south out of North Carolina and began our mini-honeymoon with our first stop at a new Holiday Inn in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. (The city still had a way to go before it would become a trendy tourist attraction that it is today.)

On the way to see my parents in Mississippi, we drove west through South Carolina, Georgia, and Alabama searching the airwaves for our songs (while 9,305 miles apart). Hits like You’re My Soul & Inspiration, Happy Together, Wouldn’t It Be Nice, and Dedicated to the One I Love.

No shower or wedding gifts in Mississippi either, just advice. But we were given the use of Aunt Dara’s unoccupied house, sans indoor toilet. Quite a way to make an impression on a new bride, but it was otherwise nice and a free place to extend our honeymoon.

Seven days after leaving North Carolina, we had gone through the small amount Marty had and the $200 or so that I brought with me. For my one year in Vietnam (where my income was less than $3,000) I spent money on my R & R, paying off  Marty’s engagement a ring, savings bond debit, a small allotment sent to my folks back home and to Marty;  still, I managed to save $300.00 which the bank sent me before our cross-coutry trip continued.

Newlyweds, Don & Marty, at Cabrillo Beach, San Pedro, California, in early 1968. (Swan Archives)

We extended our honeymoon, enjoying the benefits of sleeping together as husband and wife, and resting in cheap motels, along the 1,958.3-mile route to California for my next assignment.

We’d already driven 900 miles from North Carolina in Marty’s Springtime Yellow 1967 Mustang GT hardtop, with threadbare tires; not much storage for all our worldly belongings, and a broken gas gauge (we ran out somewhere in Oklahoma).

Actually, it was a pretty nice car, but somehow she had managed to get saddled with a monthly payment of $105 (about $778 in 2019 money) on a car costing less than three-thousand dollars.

Angel Of The Morning, Young Girl, played as we motored through Arkansas, Kind Of A Drag, Magic Carpet Ride, rang out in Oklahoma, Green Tambourine, I Wonder What She’s Doing Tonight, in Texas. Itchycoo Park, Bend Me-Shape Me, Spooky, in New Mexico and Arizona and all the hits of January 1968 played as we searched for stations on the long trip west.

Much of our travel West on I-40 ran parallel to Route 66 in many places. We went through cities like Tulsa, Amarillo, Albuquerque and towns like Shamrock, Tucumcari, and Needles.  Our one tourist stop was just a 12-mile detour down old Route 66 to see the three-quarter mile wide Barringer crater near Winslow, Arizona. Impressive.

Early in the evening, after three days travel, we rolled into big LA. A spectacular site, Los Angeles; by far more lights than Marty had ever seen and certainly as many I’d seen in large cities.

I’m surprised we found our way through the more than four-thousand square mile city that incorporated some 80 municipalities. Now as a passenger, I began celebrating as soon as we hit city limits with 40oz can of cold Colt-45.™ We had to traverse most of LA — Marty  not infrequently stopping at service station restrooms for me — to get to our destination in San Pedro, near the Port of Los Angeles.

We settling into a “furnished” one-bedroom apartment just across the street from the hospital at Ft. McArthur in San Pedro, California. We bought new tires and California coverage for the Mustang, some Melmac® dinnerware and a 23″ B&W Emerson® TV that came in a wheeled cart.

After getting my travel pay, we decided to celebrate a bit. After all, we had made in cross-country and me from Vietnam. And oh yes, marriage.  Peppy’s was a San Pedro restaurant with a reputation for excellent food. After a great dinner there, including a good bottle of wine and desert, it was $20 including tip, (over $153 in 2019 money).

There would be no more outings like that because on day one, we were underwater financially.  My base pay was $226.20 per month plus a $105 housing allowance. (Average pay for civilians was around $750.) After rent, car payment, insurance, and so forth, we had just over $100 on which to subsist for 30 days.

The $300.00 we had left Mississippi with was almost gone. I procured toilet paper from work. We made love as Love Is Blue played on KHJ. An hour later, we agonized over money.

At Ft. Mac Arthur, a few weeks after I reported for duty at the 37th Command Information Detachment, the officer in charge handed me a tattered box. He smiled and said: “They must have really liked you.”  Inside was a Purple Heart, Air Medal (both unexpected) and Army Commendation Medal. (Maybe someone put in for those medals, knowing what happened with the Bronze Star.)

I was, of course, honored and also a bit disappointed. I’d heard from a friend in Vietnam that Lt. Blankenship, before his DEROS,* had told the sergeant responsible enlisted awards, “No Bronze Star** for Swan.” I have no ill feelings for the man, Blankenship will self-destruct all by himself if he doesn’t get his insecurities under control.  As for myself, I’m disappointed for even sharing this story. Why?

Soldiers who were doing the real work in Vietnam, like these men carrying wounded on a stretcher. (U.S. Army Paul Halverson)
Soldier in sharp-bladed elephant grass, M-16 at the ready. (Courtesy Wikipedia Commons)

Soldiers doing the real work were the men in the bush, grunts walking point , pulling Listening Post duty in the middle of the night, under constant threat from snipers, ambushes, booby traps, and punji stakes.

Infantrymen in extreme heat or monsoons, in the on-again and off-again rain, who were lugging 80 lbs or more in rice paddies, through elephant grass, mountainous terrain, and fording rivers and streams.

Ground pounders who were harassed by snakes, spiders, leaches, wild monkeys, tigers and poisonous creatures by the dozen. Frequently thirsty, not enough food, jungle rot, (infected sores, ulcers, lesions, blisters, etc., on the feet, legs, underarms, and groin from long exposure to dampness) — men who saw their friends injured and killed.

Under fire, a 1st Cav trooper slithers in a rice patty, (fertilized with human waste) trying to keep his weapon dry. (Henri Huet photo from G. Jacobson post)

The majority of the soldiers who did the real work — the men I honor above —  didn’t get a recommendation for a medal at all;*** and most were sent home as E-4s, a rank lower than I achieved.

And I carp about not getting my Bronze Star!

A 1st Cavalry trooper stationed in Vietnam with the 7th Cav wrote about a common refrain used by many GIs, “Don’t mean Nothin’.”

We said it every miserable day of our miserable lives. It became our mantra. We said it in all kinds of situations for all sorts of reasons, and we said it a great deal, most often when we were miserable, which was pretty damn often . . . .  We said it when it rained, and when it didn’t rain and when it was really hot and when it was even hotter. ‘It Don’t Mean Nothin’ was said a lot.’

We said it to keep from crying, we said it when we stopped moving and when the bloodsucking insects attacked in swarms, and our faces swelled and our hands swelled, and our lips swelled, and our ears swelled and when we thought we were getting malaria, (should we quit taking our pills?) and we thought about how good that would be because you got out of the boonies if you got malaria unless you died from it. Dying from malaria sucked . . . but the prospect of staying inside the wire, sleeping on a cot off the ground, under a dry tent at the hospital, with hot chow, clean sheets and nobody shooting at you made the risk of a slow agonizing death from a deadly tropical disease seemed totally worth it. How bad could it be? We were kids. What did we know?  ‘It don’t mean nothin.’

Something just don’t feel right. So shout up and saddle up, Trooper. Your night on LP, your turn on point, but ‘It don’t mean nothin.’      Jack “Boz” Parente.

*DEROS: Date Estimate for Return from Overseas.

**Most soldiers serving in a similar job as me, in PIO, were awarded the Bronze Star; higher than the Army Commendation Medal I received.

***There were two medals (“Vietnam Service & Vietnam Campaign,”) that were automatic for those who served in Vietnam, needing no recommendation. In addition to those medals, Infantry soldiers who spent the required time in the field received the Combat Infantry Badge, not an insignificant award.

I had nightmares, about Vietnam, most every night during our honeymoon and month’s thereafter.* And I had turned into a wimp, a side Marty had never seen, and a disposition I never had. One day, we were having a get together with some of my buddies from the post; Marty was acting a little testy, and one of the guys turned toward her and said, “What’s the matter you on the rag or something?” I laughed with them instead of telling him to knock it off, not to talk that way to my wife.

I was acting like a wuss (Marty called it cowardice), and she was very disappointed in me. It was a problem in our relationship. In a few years, I did and an about-face, got a backbone, eventually to the point of wanting to rip off somebody’s face. (Marty called it backbone.)

Jungle scene in South Vietnam (Courtesy Wikimedia Commons)

Just back from Vietnam, I wasn’t trying to live high, but after the mess I’d been in over there; maybe dinner with drinks once in a while.

But that wasn’t to be. After the $20 outing when we first arrived in LA, the luxury of dinner and drinks was over. Der Wienerschnitzel™ once in a while, maybe.

By the 20th of most months, down to just a few dollar bills, we were looking for change in the sofa and between the car seats. One day while leaving our apartment, I found a five-dollar bill lying flat on one of the steps.  Nobody was around. With that five, I got four sacks of groceries at the commissary.

Then a week or two later, I was on gate guard duty (graveyard shift) at a satellite location of Ft. Mac, primarily used for Reserve training.  Listening to (Sittin’ On) The Dock Of the Bay on 93 KHJ, at about 0200 a carload of reservists, who had apparently taken advantage of being away from home, appeared at the gate.  I was about to motion them in when the driver palmed me a twenty-dollar bill.  I assume he thought I was overlooking a missed curfew or their state of inebriation, if not both. My only orders were to determine that a vehicle and its occupants were authorized on post.

Twenty-dollars; that for me was a lot of money, especially when you’re broke. Did I feel guilty (no) or tell anyone? No. I splurged with a fifth of Canadian Club®, and Marty got her hair done at a salon, and I still had money for groceries for over a week.

We had been in California for just a few months, and Marty kept saying she’d been out with girls again and “Everybody’s Pregnant.”

I had a pretty stay at home Mom and no baby.  Stay tuned.

We had work duty on Saturdays at Ft. MacArthur, though sometimes we were relieved at noon. We were also on constant alert because of the incendiary nature of 1968. Think: Martin Luther King Jr. and Bobby Kennedy assignations, the Weathermen, Black Panthers, Bobby Seale, Huey Newton, Eldridge Cleaver, SDS, Vietnam War Protests, as is oft said, “To name a few.”

Ft. McArthur, San Pedro, California, my first assignment after Vietnam. (Courtesy Wiki Commons)

There was a rotating on-call system for soldiers like me. Those living off base were required to arrive at our assembly point, within a half-hour of notification. Even if not on ready-alert, you could be called and told to remain in place for standby. The Army required that you be reachable at all times, unless on leave or pass; check in with the Command Post before going out to a movie.

Not for those restrictions; I had a chance (after an audition) to be an on-air DJ covering two six-hour weekend graveyard shifts at the Number 1 Rock station in LA, 93 KHJ, and a check for $48. With that gig,  I’d have had a better chance at securing a prime-time slot — although still a long shot — in the highly competitive LA market,** the third largest in the U.S.

I’d make it from AFVN An Khe to LA; just not to KHJ. It could have all ended right there.

*Still do sometimes.

**Los Angeles became the second-largest U.S. city in 1984.

Chapter 22: Medal Of Honor II

After Vietnam, my expectations may have been a little high. Life would not be perfect nor close to perfect. Ice cream, I’d dreamed of for a year, didn’t even taste as good as I had remembered.

Although I intend to remain faithful in my promise to write honestly and to give you the unvarnished version of how I was feeling, reacting, or coping at any given time, I believe I complained a bit much in the previous chapter.

Rather than sniveling, I should have said: “I’m out of Vietnam, back in the World with no worry of being shot by a Kalashnikov; no booby traps — no incoming. I have no field expedition requirements, and despite my on-call status, I’ve not been apart from my wife for more than 24 hours, and I sleep next to her warm body every night in a comfortable bed.”

SoCal is a Hip-Laid Back megalopolis, and we had already visited Disneyland. Ft. McArthur was a beautiful and historical post, named after one of our most famous generals. It was a great assignment.


I was working in the HQ building on the second floor in the Awards and Decoration section one day in Mid-1968 when I heard raised voices from downstairs, a slight commotion. Someone was yelling, “Where the fuck’s personnel?”

It was a young man in civilian clothes, a bit scruffy with an attitude, standing near the Sergeant Major’s office.  With no authority over someone he didn’t know to be in the military, and not in uniform, the senior NCO was in no position to dress him down, but he was doing so anyway. The man had walked into the HQ of an active army post using profanity after all; what gives?

Turns out —  I kid you not — he was looking for the personnel office, so he could pick up his Medal Of Honor!   We were astonished when we found out he was not joking. 

US Army Medal of Honor (DOD Photo)

I talked with the former soldier briefly, while the Sergeant Major, both hands covering his face, was hyperventilating. He wanted no ceremony, no publicity. I asked him if he had considered staying in the Army, as the Medal Of Honor (MOH) would surely be a boon to his career. “Fuck no, are you dinky dau?” he snapped, “I’m hanging drywall, making five-dollars an hour.”

I considered telling him the story that I’d heard about President Truman, a combat veteran, who upon presenting a soldier the Medal Of Honor in the White House remarked: “I’d rather have [earned] that medal than be President.”

Oh, well.  This superhero, presumably, returned to his apartment in Downey, tossed his MOH in a drawer, got up the next morning, and went to work — hanging more drywall.

On the subject of work, I wondered what plum assignment a warrant officer in our section had. He would come into the office looking sharp is his Class-A uniform, stay a few minutes, and was gone the rest of the day.

Then I found out. He was occupied with notifying LA area next of kin of those killed in Vietnam. When a family is informed, the military member must be at least equal rank as the KIA. Most helicopter pilots in Vietnam were warrant officers. Our soldier of that rank, outside of bloody combat, was fulfilling the worst duty in the military — ringing those doorbells. This dreadful detail would not only continue, but increase. The deadliest year for US troops in Vietnam was this year, 1968, and that included lots of helicopter pilots.

I can imagine him wheeling a big olive drab ’65 Ford Custom 500 staff car, without power steering, around the streets of LA.  The yellow three-inch tall lettering on the front doors read: “U.S. Army For Official Only.”

He was a great target for citizens, who occasionally gave him the finger. It may have come from those active in protest movements, or people who just hated the U. S. Army for what it may have done to them or their families.  

With likely outdated paper maps, he crept slowly through neighborhoods looking for that address. Spotted by service member wives, daughters, sons, or parents, they pointlessly retreated to the back of their houses, trying to hide from their front doors, but listening still, for that knock and praying that it never came.



Medal of Honor recipient Charles C. Hagemeiester, a medic with the 1st Cavalry Division (Airmobile) earned for actions during an ambush in Binh Dinh Province March 20, 1967. (U.S. Army photos)

Back in the States, away from the war, I hadn’t thought much about General Norton’s declaration.  That was until May 1968. I was out with four or five friends from the post, TV playing in the background, when the news came on.  I saw Pres. Johnson at the White House place the Medal Of Honor around Hagemeister’s neck!

Excited and surprised, I raised my voice over the din in the club, “Hey, I know this guy, I was out there with him.  That’s Chuck Hagemeister!” The guys were twisting their faces, “OK Swan, OK, sure, all right then,” they grumbled — never looking up from their game of pool. I tried once more, “No really,” and then just gave up. (Unfortunately, Hagemeister’s father would not live to see his son receive the monumental honor, he died when his only son was just four-years-old.) 


I often think of that day in 1967, about Hagemeister, about the brave men who got no medal at all, and about those who gave it all. Now I live secluded near the ocean, count my blessings every night in a comfortable bed. I’m no longer worried about taunts from my fellow citizens — like those at the airport the day I arrived from Vietnam — or incoming from the enemy we fought for so long, so long ago, so far away.

As for those who may have said, "People who served in Vietnam were Suckers." I disagree. "No Thank you for your Service Suckers" just doesn't have the same appreciatory ring. 
Instead, it might be appropriate to say of the "leaders" who sent us there: The only domino's that fell were on the 58 thousand plus souls sacrificed and the survivors, many of whom are still suffering.

This concludes my In Country chapters on Vietnam. But it will be a source of discussion in the next two chapters: How We Could Have Won In Vietnam & The 1st Team In Vietnam.


Chapter 23: How We Could Have Won In Vietnam

“And Men will not understand us . . . and the war will be forgotten.”  All Quiet On The Western Front. 

Vietnam . . . let that hang in the air for a moment. What comes to mind? War, of course: The Vietnam War. And the requisite discussion begins. If you are one of those who believes We Should Have Won The War, this is your chapter.

Anyone with a scintilla of imagination knows how the United States could have most likely won the Vietnam War; tactical nukes, bombing Hanoi back to the Stone Age, allowing the military to fight the war with no restrictions, and so forth.  But at what costs?

Could we have won without acceding to those exigent measures that might have provoked China or the Soviet Union?  In this chapter, I will present my proposal on how we could have — and should have won in Vietnam.

I don’t feel the need to bloviate about the mountain of research I have conducted from scores of books, articles,* interviews, and my own Vietnam experience in reaching my verdict. This endeavor was more difficult than I had imagined, yet it is not an academic treatise on How We Could Have Won in Vietnam. There is a plethora of scholarly research and even more books concerning turning points in the Vietnam War. My conclusion — outlined in this extended chapter — is specific and straightforward.

In the succeeding paragraphs, I will first provide scenarios of strategic opportunities missed before Tet.** Then I will proffer specific battlefield conditions and circumstances during Tet that should have been a clarion call for a new strategy.


1) As early as 1966, General William Westmoreland (Commander of  U.S. forces in Vietnam) drew up plans for a campaign where U. S. troops would cross the border into Laos. Westmoreland’s men would blunt enemy infiltration into South Vietnam and deny the North Vietnamese Army (NVA, also known as the Peoples Army of Vietnam.) usage of the Ho Chi Minh Trail. President Johnson rejected his request. (Archives. Gov.history/mil)

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Ho Chi Minh Trail (undated). (Wiki Commons)

2) In mid-1967, 5′ 0″  General Von Nguyen Giap (Commander of all communist forces) opposed an all-out offensive against American forces and cities in the South (Think: Khe Sanh, Tet, Hue, Easter Offensive). He believed such an invasion by the NVA, into the South, would spur the U.S. to attack just north of the DMZ where his main contingent congregated.  He thought it logical that Westmoreland would be “provoked to invade Laos to cut the Ho Chi Minh Trail,” the top-ranking NVA general reasoned. “[My] major concern is that the United States will expand the conflict beyond South Vietnam’s borders and that an American landing in North Vietnam might have disastrous consequences for the North Vietnamese regiment,” Giap rationalized.  (Vietnam Magazine, History Net.Com, Post-war NVA documents)

3) Hanoi needed to determine how the Americans would respond to a communist buildup and offensive. Giap decided to launch attacks near the DMZ. The U.S. response would help formulate and develop the offensive he was set to command. His battles along the DMZ (from March to August 1967) near Cam Lo, Khe Sanh, Con Thien, Camp Carroll, Quang Tri city; the Rockpile and Route 9 served as the test. The NVA soldiers incurred heavy losses. But when the U.S. did not send troops across the DMZ or Laos, Hanoi believed the U.S. would continue to react only defensively. Now Giap felt his chances for a successful offensive were good, and his men would continue with their charge into the South.  (Post-war NVA documents as reported in Vietnam Magazine and other sources)

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NVA regulars with PPSh-41, Russian made sub-machine gun, during the Vietnam War. (Wikipedia)

4) Gen. Giap wanted to test America’s strategic intentions one final time before giving the green light for Tet.  He staged his buildup of forces at the juncture of Laos and North and South Vietnam. If his corps-size presence did not trigger a U.S. invasion of North Vietnam or Laos, his offensive plans would continue. Since the closest U.S. base to Laos and North Vietnam was Khe Sanh, his final test was to attack there. (Post-war NVA documents as reported in Tet, The Turning Point)

5)  On December 21, 1967, Giap’s division tangled with U.S. Marines near Khe Sanh. Westmoreland then ordered the Marines at Khe Sanh to scout assault routes for a possible Laos incursion and, on December 27, 1967, sent a Flash cable to Washington with an urgent request. His proposal outlined, in detail, the need for a strike across the border to blunt enemy infiltration. A few days later, Westmoreland received another rejection from LBJ for the Laotian strike. (The Vietnam War Almanac, Interview with Maj. Gen. John Tolson and other sources)

6) After the massive bombardment of the Marine Combat Base at Khe Sanh by the NVA on Jan. 21, 1968, the U. S. responded the same way it had during the past two years, according to Giap. The communist general was certain the U.S. would not counterattack outside the South Vietnamese borders.  (Post-war NVA documents reported on History Hanoi’s ambition and overreach was Westmoreland’s opportunity to bury Giap’s divisions under a cascade of bombs, and a cross-border strike the NVA were dreading. Westmoreland was never given the chance; Tet was on.

7) The U.S. command did not, of course, know of Giap’s specific intentions, but U. S. intelligence knew of his presence just beyond the DMZ, and rumors of a major campaign that became Tet was no secret in Westmoreland’s command. Two weeks before the Jan 30, 1968, Tet strike, Westmoreland even asked the President of South Vietnam to cancel leave (that most of his troops would be on) for the Tet holiday. Westmoreland was rebuffed. (Vietnam Magazine, Vietnam: A History)


1) General Earle Wheeler, Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, on Feb. 8, 1968, cabled an urgent message to Westmoreland in Vietnam.  Johnson was not prepared to accept defeat just yet, adding:  “If you need more troops, ask for them, we’ve entered a critical phase, request what you believe is required under the circumstances,” Wheeler highlighted in the Top Secret communiqué.  “Capitalize on their casualties [in Tet] to materially shorten the war,” he relayed to Westmoreland.   Johnson had already contemplated calling up the reserves. The President, he said, was ready to pursue “A winning strategy.” The Tet battles had crippled the communists as Westmoreland knew and Johnson had proclaimed. On Feb 28, 1968, Westmoreland sent his detailed proposal to Washington for 206,756 more troops. (The History Place™ and public domain)

2) Now that we have the benefit of the Hanoi regime’s records, we know they were struggling after their losses during Tet; as many as 60,000 in the first month!  Our intelligence knew they were in peril. The Viet Cong (VC) especially could no longer fight as a cohesive force, and even the communists agreed their combat readiness was in “jeopardy.” (Postwar NVA/Hanoi documents as reported in Vietnam War Almanac and Public domain.)

3) On the Internet today, there are stories quoting Gen. Giap:  “You had us on the ropes [after Tet]. We knew it, we thought you knew it. But we were elated to notice your media was definitely helping us. They were causing more disruption in America than we could in the battlefields.”  I was unable to verify the above quote with 100% accuracy. It does, however, coincide with conditions in the field and how U. S. media were reporting on Tet. The following quote, however, is not in question: “Do not fear the enemy,  for they can only take your life. Fear the media far more, for they will destroy your honor,” Gen Giap said on more than one occasion. (Public domain, The Guardian.Com, Bookings.Com) 

Cronkite’s broadcast of Feb. 27, 1968, was considered the death knell for LBJ’s war in Vietnam.  (Wiki Commons)

4) For a brief moment, after the Tet offensive began, Americans rallied around the flag in predictable patriotic fervor, with an upward spike in support.  A Nov. 1967 survey revealed 55 percent (of U.S.) wanted a tougher policy on Vietnam with stronger military operations. (New York Times) “Tet was a military disaster for the NVA but a political victory for them in the West,” New Yorker Magazine wrote in Feb. 1968. Even Walter Cronkite — before his famous denunciation of the war— reported on his February 13, 1968, broadcast: “First, and simplest, the VC/NVA suffered a military defeat [in Tet].  Its missions proved suicidal.” The Washington Post and New York Times made similar assessments.

Then came Cronkite’s broadcast of Feb. 27, 1968; many thought it was the death knell for LBJ’s war in Vietnam when he reported:

“To say that we are closer to victory today is to believe, in the face of the evidence, the optimists who have been wrong in the past. To suggest that we are on the edge of defeat is to yield to unreasonable pessimism. To say we are mired in a stalemate seems to be the only realistic, yet unsatisfactory conclusion.

On the off chance that military and political analysts are right, in the next few months we must test the enemy’s intentions, in case this is indeed his last big gasp before negotiations.  In the next few weeks and months we must test the enemy’s intentions . . . .”  (Author’s note: Isn’t that an opening for a surge?)

But it is increasingly clear to this reporter that the only rational way out then will be to negotiate, not as victors, but as an honorable people who lived up to their pledge to defend democracy and did the best they could. ” (CBS archives)

5) On March 23, 1968, Westmoreland learned LBJ would send only a fraction of the 206,756 men he had requested. Just 13,500 were approved. (An increase of approximately 22,600 troops were deployed in all of 1968) (Washington Post). On the same day, the Chicago Tribune ran a 72 point headline: “WESTMORELAND RECALLED.”  He would remain commander in Vietnam until June 1968. (Vietnam, A History and other sources)

6) Still in charge, Westmoreland saw an opportunity where he could “take advantage” of an enemy in peril that would not require Presidential approval. The U.S. Marines in the battle of Dia Do April 30 to May 3, 1968, were outnumbered 10 to 1, yet they cut off routes at the DMZ terminating infiltration of an NVA Division. The enemy suffered 1,568 killed, U.S. losses were 91. Two Marines earned Medals Of Honor in the campaign. (The History Place™, Vietnam Magazine) Westmoreland planned to sent fresh troops to decimate any floundering NVA in and around the DMZ, had the extra troops promised in March arrived and not for what happened next; mini-Tet. Westmoreland needed all available resources when the VC/NVA launched simultaneous attacks on 119 cities and military installations, May 5, 1968.

Map showing U.S. bases and villages near DMZ. Dong Ha (right center at hwy. 1) is near Dai Do (about 10 miles south of the DMZ) where Marines won a decisive battle that thwarted infiltration of NVA crossing DMZ, April 30-May 3, 1968. (Wiki Commons)
U. S. Marines from 2nd Battalion, 4th Regiment “Magnificence Bastards” charge with M-16s and  M72 LAW anti-tank weapon during the battle of Dai Do, a decisive U.S. victory in early 1968. Note camo on helmets of the two men at right. (U.S. Marine Corps photo)

I have written the following speech; the speech LBJ should have given. It is my strategy on How We Could Have Won the War In Vietnam.

I have asked for this airtime tonight to make two major announcements. Firstly, I will not seek reelection as your president (pause to let that sink in) and Secondly, I have initiated an all out campaign of Surge and Strike to end and win the war in Vietnam before the expiration of my term in January.

To that end I have called up the Reserves so that our military will not be spread too thin and I have extended indefinitely, the tour of those serving in Vietnam. Although winning this war will take more than the sheer size of our force, I have already approved an increase of 50,000 more combat troops. As I speak,  several hundred are already in the air over the Pacific headed to that war zone. Presently, more than 150 U. S. aircraft are carrying out offensive operations over North Vietnam.

My commanders will have at their disposal all the might of the U.S. arsenal and I have ordered them to use all necessary force to end this conflict with a victory. I’m serious about winning and win we will. I do not wish to expand this war beyond its present borders, but noting is off the table in my determination to bring this war to an end — with a win.

The only way to stop the U. S. Surge and Strike Offensive — from the ground and air — is for the communists to withdraw immediately all of its troops from South Vietnam, Laos and Cambodia and the immediate closure of the Ho Chi Minh trail. All our POWs must be immediately released unharmed and with full accountability. We will not give the enemy a chance to regroup during any cease-fire until it is clear that our demands are being met.

Too much blood and treasure has been lost to give up now, and everyone agrees that this war has gone on far too long. And without having to worry about a reelection, I will devote all the time necessary to win this war for the United States, and the people of South Vietnam. Initially U.S. casualties are bound to rise, but the enemy will lose much more — the war. To the loved ones of our fighting men: My goal is to end this war before my term expires in January. In the unlikely event that our all out effort falls short of my expectations, I will begin the immediate withdraw all our forces from Vietnam before the end of my time as your president.

I will not answer any specific questions tonight about this campaign, I believe I have said it all. To reiterate, we will do what is necessary to end this war in our favor. Finally, I am convinced the majority of the American people want this war to end with a win and I, along with our brave men in Vietnam, intend to do just that.  God bless our troops and the people of South Vietnam. God bless the U.S.A.

The above speech that I wrote — the one LBJ should have given — is my strenuous but surmountable strategy for a U.S. victory in Vietnam.***


1) The Commander In Chief is now committed with all the might of the U.S. Military and has ordered his commanders — who have been itching for a chance — to execute a winning strategy. The General’s would now have the green light to expel the enemy from its sanctuaries, wherever they may be. Any VC/NVA force in a one-on-one battle, especially with the likes of the U.S. Marines and the 1st Air Cavalry with its U. S. Navy and Air Force air assets — would be crushed.

2) I believe as they say in my hearts of hearts and with my head too; if the commanders began prosecuting the war to win — the men could tell. Morale would spike. Our troops would fight with a fury to get out of that stinking country and be home by Christmas as victors. Our allies the ARVN (Army Republic of Vietnam) would surely fight alongside us with more vigor. It would become obvious, the more we punished the communists — the easier it would be for the ARVN to defend themselves upon our departure.

3) The U.S. population, in general, might be more supportive of the war, knowing we were fighting for a quick resolution. Relatives at home should feel a little better, knowing their loved ones were fighting in a war that was winnable and soon to be over.


1) We let Tet, Khe Sanh, Hue, Walter Cronkite, and the anti-war movement defeat us; Well, LBJ did! Thanks, Walter. Thanks, Jane.

President Johnson announces he will not seek another term and capitulating on Vietnam March 31, 1968. (Wiki Commons)

2) March 31, 1968, LBJ announced on National TV that he was not seeking reelection, he also declared plans to: “Limit the war [in Vietnam],” and later to cease all bombing above 17th Parallel and then announced withdrawal talks with Hanoi. (, Public domain sources) He capitulated and sent a message to the communists and the rest of the world: “I’m giving up, let the next President deal with it.” (Authors percipience).

3) What was LBJ thinking? “Let’s have a few more ceasefires to give the enemy time to regroup, and then [to save face], we’ll keep fighting on the communist’s terms.” (Authors elucidation)  Let someone else deal with the mess I created.

4) In case you don’t remember how it ends:  Our fighting men soldiered on for five more years-plus while our troops and our pilots were hampered by ridiculous rules of engagement. Many men in the field were also frustrated with the tepid motivation and questionable fighting ability of the ARVN, who was supposed to take charge of their own war so U.S. troops could go home. Sagging morale was inevitable as the men marked time — just trying to stay alive — realizing their fighting would not result in a victory. Even though offensive field operations in the last two years by U.S. troops were limited, men were still being castrated by landmines and losing limbs and life.

5) After LBJ failed to take advantage of the opportunities, in late 1967 and early 1968, the war would drag on five more years-plus; while our POWs suffered and more than 38,000 additional Americans were killed — and untold numbers of Vietnamese! Let that hang in the air for a moment.

“During the day on Monday, Washington time, the airport at Saigon came under persistent rocket as well as artillery fire and was effectively closed . . . . I . . . ordered the evacuation of all American personnel remaining in South Vietnam.” President Gerald Ford, April 29, 1975.

The next day the communists took Saigon and renamed it Ho Chi Minh City (Washington Post). But not before two U.S Marines assigned to Embassy Guard were killed in a mortar attack on April 29,1975, one day before the fall of Saigon.  They were the last U.S. servicemen to die in Vietnam proper, and if that were not enough, their bodies were left behind and not returned to the U.S.until early 1976!   Charles McMahon had been in Vietnam eleven days, Darwin Judge less than two months. (The Last Men Out, Wikipedia)

McMahon (left) age 22 and Judge 19, last In-Country fatalities of the Vietnam War. (Wiki Commons)
I am ending this chapter in memory of 58,220 U.S. souls who perished so far away, so long ago, for a people to be free.

“Painful as it is to remember — Least we forget.”  The Vietnam War. Donald Swan, December 21, 2018.

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Refugees storm a U. S. chopper April 29, 1975, (one day before fall of  capital) during the evacuation of Saigon (Wiki Commons)˜

*Numerous books, articles, and documents were researched in the compilation of this chapter: Wikipedia; The History Place™; New York Times; Washington PostNew Yorker; USA Today:;;; The Guardian.Com;; The Hidden History of America At War, Kenneth Davis R. Dee publisher; Vietnam War Almanac, Col Harry Summers Ballantine Books; A Bright Shining Lie, Neil Sheehan Random House Publishing; The Best And The Brightest, David Halberstam Random House; Vietnam, A History, Stanley Karnow Viking Press; After Tet, Ronald Spector Hatchet Press: The Hidden History Of The Vietnam War, John Prados Ivan R. Dee; Tet: The Turning Point, Don Oberdorfer De Capo Press; The Fallacy Of The Turning, Mark Bowden Atlantic Monthly Press; Vietnam Magazine and public domain not requiring credit. My library contains some 100 books on the subject of the war in Vietnam.

**Tet: Both sides agreed to a truce for the most important Vietnamese holiday. The communists used the occasion for a series of surprise attacks on cities, towns, villages, hamlets, and U.S. installations throughout South Vietnam Jan 30, 1968, and beyond. Considered a turning point in the Vietnam War, there were heavy fatalities on both sides, especially for the VC/NVA.

*** Other Alternatives: 1) It could be argued that LBJ simply use his speech of March 31, 1968, to declare victory and begin immediately withdrawing of all of our troops.

2) One might also make a case for withdrawal after the bloody battle of Ia Drang (the first major battle of the Vietnam War for the U.S. Nov. 1965). Although it was a clear victory for the U.S., it was very costly as well. LBJ could have said something like: “We are not quitters, and as JFK said just three years ago, ‘We do these things not because they are easy, but because they are hard.’  I, however —  after careful consideration and consultation with both houses of Congress and my conscience — have determined that the cost of this war is too high for a job the boys of South Vietnam should be doing for themselves. I will begin the immediate withdrawal of all combat troops from Vietnam. The U. S. will continue to provide some support for the government of South Vietnam in its efforts to stop the spread of communism.”

3) Finally, it could be argued the Vietnam War was not winnable, and LBJ could have begun a withdrawal at any time he chose.

Author’s Note: Every effort is made that all my writing be 100% accurate. Any misstatements or errors by the author are unintentional and should not distract from my premise on How We Could Have Won In Vietnam.
About the Author: Swan is a decorated Vietnam veteran who served in the  U. S. Army as a Combat Correspondent with the elite 1st Cavarly Division (Airmobile). He’s authored several feature articles about veterans and their combat experience. Swan holds both BA and MA in Mass & Public Communication from the University of Denver. He was a senior Public Affairs Officer in the U.S. Air Force and is author of “My Life At The Limit,” an autobiography. He lives on the Pacific in Northern Calif. with his wife and three canines.

Chapter 24: 1st Team in Vietnam

The stereotypical image of Vietnam veterans was well established in the consciousness of the general public by 1970. We were all assumed to be incurably and permanently  traumatized by the war: Drug-addled, unemployable, homeless misfits; or soulless psychopathic killers deserving of fear. The typical villain-of-choice in Hollywood films and cop shows of that era was the “deranged Vietnam vet driven by combat experiences to commit homicidal mayhem. Years of daily bombardments by: all the Bad news that’s fit to print.” Media coverage of the war convinced the public  that those who fought in Vietnam were poor, ignorant dupes who who should be either pitied or feared –“no in between.”   (Jerry Morelock from article in Vietnam Magazine)

It is no surprise then, that in my community at large, as a well-known writer and veteran, people occasionally ask me about Vietnam. Was there mutiny, drug abuse or racial hostility among U.S. forces, during the war? I saw zero such activity during the 12 months I was there in 1967 with the 1st Cavalry Division (Airmobile). I didn’t see men drunk, smoking pot, burning villages and screwing the local whores. I didn’t see any of that.

I did hear of problems of excessive drinking, rowdy soldiers visiting Sin City, incidences of occasional pot smoking by soldiers who were not in a combat posture, and a couple of fragging incidents that occurred within the division. This was fairly early in the war, 1967, and there was still hope of winning, especially in the elite 1st Cav.

As for race issues, it practically disappeared in the field when often time one depended on another person, black or white, to save their butt.

Was everybody happy, of course not? Soldiers were anxious, more alert, and trying to get home without death or serious injury. Being in Vietnam was a major stressor, and later in the conflict, some drug and race issues materialized.

During the time I served, I observed soldiers who saw purpose in the mission in Vietnam, and their jobs typically took precedence over spit and polish.  No matter where, soldiers bitch and moan (especially lower enlisted) at just being in uniform.

Most people I hear from are more judicious in their queries and want to know about my experience in Vietnam as it relates to how well we were executing our mission, our motivation, and so forth.  I was In-Country Jan 67 to Jan. 68, and I can speak assuredly about my unit: 1st Cavalry Division (Airmobile).   Although my tour in Vietnam was no easy ride, I was honored to have served; especially as a member of The First Team. 

All Crests, Patches, and Artwork from Swan Archives. (Cheri Swan Photos)


You will remember from previous chapters, that I traveled extensively while in the 1st Cav and was on the ground with the troops during several operations. I had practically unfettered access from the PFC to the CG (Commanding General) and to classified information. I believe that — as an unassuming, ordinary soldier —  I was more likely to get my subjects to speak freely and give me unfiltered responses.

So, when I impart my opinion and observations, you can trust I am in a position to do so.

The overwhelming majority (about 95%) of the hundreds of soldiers I met, from cooks to colonels, were highly motivated and serious about our mission in Vietnam. How confident were we?  A group of us used to talk about how someday we would be relaxing in a condo on the beautiful beaches of the South China Sea — subsidized by the grateful people of South Vietnam — because we saved them from communism.

As for our morale and fighting spirit when I was on the ground in 1967; The 1st Cavalry Division (Airmobile) with its 16,000 Skytroopers, 434 choppers; Infantry, Artillery, Engineers, Scouts, Airborne, Rangers, Reconnaissance and other specially trained troopers was a motivated and lethal fighting force in Vietnam. We were The First Team, gung-ho and kicking ass.* There was a bounty on our men; the VC/NVA offered a monetary reward for the capture, dead or alive, of any 1st Air Cavalry combat soldier!

 Below is a tribute to Combat & Support Units of the fighting 1st Cavalry in Vietnam,The First Team:

1st Battalion, 5th Cav Black Knights.  The CGs ready strike force. The Cav Commander lauded these men, saying their Cambodia campaign was one of the Cav’s most impressive operations. In addition, 1st/5th operated in Binh Dinh Province, participated in Pleiku and several other campaigns. I was in the field with this unit when a medic from A company distinguished himself by earning the Medal of Honor

Unknown2nd Battalion, 5th Cav. Ironhorse. Relief at Ia Drang, fighting in Khe Sanh, Bong Son, and DMZ. I spent time in the field with this unit.

     Fifth Cav. Fatalities about 800 men.           

6 Medals of Honor earned.**

1st Battalion, 7th Cav.  Garry Owen. The bloody battle of  Ia Drang Valley, one of the primary unit’s featured in the book and movie We Were Soldiers Once . . . and Young. Sixteen campaigns, including fighting at Hue.    2nd Battalion, 7th Cav Garry Owen, battle of Ia Drang, Masher, White Wing, Khe Sanh, and Cambodia.  I spent time with this unit.


5th Battalion, 7th Cav, Garry Owen. Arrived a year after other units of the 1st Cav. Air assaults in Binh Dinh Province, Operation Pershing, Thayer II, decisive battle at Hue.

Seventh Cav had about 1,000 fatalities, more than any Cav unit.                              

7 Medals of Honor.

1st Battalion (Airborne) 8th Cav.  Jumping Mustangs. Straight to Bong Son, Operation Irvin, Crazy Horse, Navy-Cavalry ops. and other campaigns.  I spent time with this unit.


2nd Battalion (Airborne) 8th Cav. Stallions. Plei Me Campaign, Cambodia, and others.

Eighth Cav fatalities almost 700.

5  Medals of Honor earned.

1st Squadron, 9th Cav. Headhunters. Known as the Cav of the Cav.  Reconnaissance Scouts, one of the most active units in the Division. Numerous campaigns including Cambodia. Attached units: Rangers and Long Range Recon. Patrols (LRRP). I spent time with this unit.

Ninth Cav. Loses about 550. 3  Medals of Honor earned.



1st Battalion (Airborne) 12th Cav. Always Ready. Operation Lincoln, LZ Bird, and numerous other campaigns. Made one of the largest assaults of the Vietnam War. I spent time with this unit.


2nd Battalion, 12th Cav. Thunder Horse. An Khe Defense, Masher, Bong Son, Tet, decisive battle at Hue and other campaigns.

Twelfth Cav losses almost 750.              

6 Medals of Honor earned.

227th Assault Helicopter Battalion, Spearhead. Battle of Ia Drang, Laos, numerous campaigns.  Nearly 700 fatalities. 

1 Medal of Honor earned.


228th Support  Helicopter Battalion, Warriors. Deployed ACH-47 Guns-A-Go-Go in campaigns. About 170 Fatalities.

229th Assault Helicopter Battalion, Winged Assault. Battle of Ia Drang, Laos, numerous campaigns, spent time with this unit.                                                   

About 600 fatalities.Dscn3491

2  Medals of Honor earned.


Division Artillery, 2nd/20th ARA Blue Max. About 60 Fatalities. All artillery units about  200 Fatalities.

   More than 100 fatalities.


     Fatalities, in a Platoon of 30.

11th Aviation Co. About 100 Fatalities.

13th Signal Battalion. About 16 Fatalities.


15th Medical Battalion Angels of Mercy. About 35 Fatalities.

Although far from being a player in any direct combat role, my own company of record, 15th Admin. with finance, supply, casualty, legal and the like suffered 10 Fatalities, including 4 from our fifteen member PIO.*** 


The 1st Air Cavalry fought in all (4) Corps Tactical Zones in Vietnam, including Laos and Cambodia. The prestigious Presidential Unit Citation and scores of other awards were given to the 1st Cav for its bravery in battleSky Troopers of the 1st Cav earned more Medals of Honor by far —  30  (19 Posthumously)! — than any other division in Vietnam.

Had the town where I was born lost as many souls as did the 1st Cav in Vietnam, it would no longer exist. The 5,621 killed in 1st Cav would more than wipe out the entire population of Amory, Miss, at the time of my birth.  

Each soul a sacrifice 5,621 times over.

A salute to all who served, especially those who can never return it.

1st Cavalry Division (Airmobile) Vietnam 1965-1971 (5 yrs & 6 mo.).     The First Team. Indeed.

*This is in no way meant to glorify War.  It is not pretty, people die, including our own, of course.

**Sources for Fatalities and Medals of Honor: 1st Calvary Division Assoc. Book Of Honor. The listing may not include every single unit of the 1st Cav nor all of its attached support contingents.

***Over a five-year period.

Chapter 25: Twins & Trouble

What’s a young married couple, just starting their lives together, struggling financially, and frequently arguing to do? Have a baby, of course.

I was awakened by our alarm clock radio playing Honey by Bobby Goldsboro. It happened to be Marty’s favorite song. I quietly eased out of bed and was in the bathroom shaving when Marty pounded on the door. Her morning sickness had begun. There was no time to comfort or contemplate. I had to make formation at the Post in half-an-hour.  I left her in our 400 sq. ft. apartment throwing-up. Marty was 19 and away from home for the first time, 2,623 miles away to be exact.

It was July ’68, I had less than a year remaining on my enlistment; too short for another tour in Vietnam but hopefully, enough time left to see Marty through a complicated pregnancy. No civilian doctors were apt to treat her at this stage, and besides, we had no health insurance once my enlistment ended.

I would do what a year ago was unthinkable — subjecting me to another tour in Vietnam — reenlist in the U.S. Army for three more years! The good news was a re-enlistment bonus of about $1,800 and continued prenatal care.

My peers on the post thought I was a total idiot, called me a lifer (pejorative term) ridiculed me even after our top Sergeant told them to knock it off.  “Swan, I never saw you as being that stupid,” was one of the milder comments. But none had a wife pregnant with twins!

We made arrangements with the company, that financed Marty’s Mustang, for an uncontested repossession. Then with some of the reenlistment money, we bought a slightly used pale blue ’68 Chevy Impala, 4 door.

November 28, 1968, Thanksgiving Day. Twelve hours of hard labor, seven minutes between baby one: Lisa (pseudonym) 6 lb 8 oz. and the breech birth of baby two: Laura (pseudonym) 7 lb 9 oz. Fraternal twin girls — squalling and screaming.  Luckily for me, fathers to be, weren’t allowed in the birthing room.

Family leave hadn’t been invented in 1968, so I took all the regular leave I had to assist in round the clock duty for the twins. Lisa and Laura overwhelmed Marty and me. With two babies, it was always somebody’s turn.  Imagine young first-time parents, with twins, waking up at different times during the night, whimpering and wailing. For the first few months, we got little sleep. We did not have the convenience of disposable diapers, and there were no relatives within two-thousand miles. Neither of us got a break from the twins, not even a half-hour.

Now I had a pretty stay at home, miserable mom.

Not long after the twins were born, I got a Permanent Change of Station (PCS) notice, thankfully not for Vietnam. We were leaving hip SoCal for the Sacramento Army Depot. We packed all of our worldly belongings in the 327cid Impala, traveling for the first time as a family of four.

We listened mostly to 93 KHJ on the way hearing songs like Do You Know The Way To San Jose by Dionne Warrick. No, we’re headed for Sacramento, thank you. Then we picked up KYA San Francisco with Magic Carpet Ride by Steppenwolf, Spooky by the Classics IV. The twins were finally asleep, and I dared not turn up Hey Jude by the Beatles.

Governor Reagan’s residence in Sacramento. (Lyon Realty)

In Sacramento, we would have no trouble getting around after navigating big LA for a year. We got a small furnished 2nd-floor apartment near the Capitol. I was assigned to the 317th Maintenance Co. at Sacramento Army Depot. It was a phantom unit and a cover for the classified work a small group of us were conducting around Gov. Reagan’s residence. (Reagan lived in the governor’s mansion for just four months.)

I was also an operator-technician at the Military Auxiliary Radio System (MARS) site at the army depot. Our 24-hour facility took calls from stations overseas, which we transmitted via a commercial telephone line. The person receiving the call, say from Vietnam, would only pay the toll to Sacramento.

In less than a year, we departed the Depot for another PCS to Ft. Lewis, Washington. We headed to the Pacific Northwest in our brand new ’69 Mustang Mach 1, 351cid with rim blow steering wheel and AM/FM radio.

Why? I still had a few reenlistment dollars and traded the ’68 Impala. I figured the army was a pretty secure job, and we just did it. A smaller car and a larger car payment. It sounded fine to us.

Identical to Swan’s 1969 Mach 1.(Courtesy Barrett-Jackson)

During our drive toward Tacoma, somewhere along the Pacific coast — listening to In the Year of 2525 by Garz & Evans — I saw where the sea and the mountains converge and thought that would be an ideal place to live someday, maybe during retirement.

I might be getting a little ahead of myself. I was 21 with a wife and two infants and a career to create.

On the four-speaker Mach 1 radio, we listened to Sugar Sugar by the Archies and wow, two hits by Elvis finally; In The Ghetto and Suspicious Minds, the latter was his first top ten hit since Crying In The Chapel in 1965.

At Ft. Lewis, I was assigned to the Visitors Welcome Center, part of the Post Headquarters. The Officer in charge of our small unit said he had heard good things from visitors and others about my public relations skills; that I had represented Ft. Lewis and the U.S. Army well.

A couple of months later, I was told to report to Post Headquarters.  Major General Willard Pearson called me to attention and pinned on staff sergeant stripes.  A below the zone promotion to E-6 conducted by a general officer!  I had been in the army just over three years. Such a promotion usually took six years, or more, and certainly not in a ceremony with the Post Commander.

My monthly basic pay (in early 1970) was $372.98, and soon I began receiving tax-free Proficiency Pay of $50 a month.*  A sign over our front door read: SSG SWAN. Inside was our spacious three-bedroom duplex in base housing, no rent, no utilities. As a family of four, our income tax was minimal, and Marty had been doing some babysitting.

D. B. Cooper had recently jumped from a 727 possibly within a few hundred miles of us, but we never attempted to score any of the $200,000 that may have been scattered in the forest. We went instead to Beneficial Finance and left with a check from a high-interest loan we used to purchase household furniture, new pots and pans, and a Philco®-Ford™ Console Color TV.

          Mt. Rainier, as seen from Ft. Lewis parade grounds. (US Army)

My monthly salary was still well below the $806 median income for civilians, but “free” health care, tax advantages, and living quarters made up for some of the deficit. Finally, our finances were in decent shape, and we would not be getting any more cars that we couldn’t afford.

Marty still struggled with the twins. A  quick way to strain a friendship, we learned, was to have them watch Lisa and Laura for an hour or two. But I wasn’t on alert status at Ft. Lewis and had more time to help with the girls. The Pacific Northwest with the Puget Sound, snow capped Mt. Rainier, and rugged forests made for a magnificent year-round spectacle. Life was pretty good.

It wasn’t to last. We would be leaving the beautiful Pacific Northwest for another PCS and even farther from Marty’s family. A lot farther — 4,283 miles precisely.

*Awarded to enlisted men who scored in the top five percent on their annual exams and efficiency reports.

Chapter 26: Destination Deutschland​​​​​

A light dusting of snow covered the Puget Sound, just as Spring had arrived, adding to its beauty on this March day in 1970.  I was sitting on a cold table in a strip-mall surgical suite somewhere in Tacoma. I was here to get fixed, sniped, you know, a vasectomy. It’s the most effective birth control for men, and I figured a set of twins was enough. I didn’t think the U.S. Army would perform such a procedure and didn’t even ask. Today they pay for sexual reassignment.

When I returned to my office the next morning, there was a call for me from a captain at Post HQ. “Congratulations Sergeant Swan, you’ve been reassigned to Germany.”

Congratulations, eh? We didn’t quite see it that way. We were comfortable at Ft. Lewis, and it was a major move, especially with two infants to tow. We would have to travel 2,861 miles just to get to the point of debarkation and then another 3,857 over the North Atlantic to Frankfurt.  Luckily we were afforded concurrent travel, which meant the entire family would be together for our trip to Germany.

There was a lot to be done before we left for Deutschland, like getting our immunizations, passports, out-processing,  pick-up of our household goods, briefings, and so on. We also needed to liquidate the Mach 1. Ford™ bought it back at Kelley Blue Book® value. Since it wasn’t paid for, they didn’t allow the car to go overseas and out of their control.

We flew from Sea-Tac to see my parents in Mississippi. There I  picked up a 1966 VW that Dale had refurbished, with parts from the one I had wrecked in 1964. This time I would buy it.

My parents thought the twins looked sickly, too skinny, and wondered why they cried so much. Of course, they were proud to see their first Grandchildren and gave us lots of advice.

From there, we headed to North Carolina in the noisy non-air conditioned Beetle to visit Marty’s folks. American Woman by the Guess Who droned from the small speaker and War by Edwin Starr was played often. It was no Mach 1 but paid for.

Marty’s parent’s patience was tested, as well, when these first-time Grandparents wondered why they cried so much. Lisa was way too skinny, were we feeding them properly?  They worried about our trip abroad with the twins, and then we got lots of advice.

We picked-up 1-95 North for the ten-hour drive and soon were getting tired of Simon and Garfunkel’s Bridge Over Troubled Water, and Everything Is Beautiful by Ray Stevens. We rested overnight near Newark.

The next morning, we dropped off the little VW at the Bayonne port for its boat ride to Bremerhaven in Northern Germany. Later that day, we took off from Newark International (EWR) for the roughly nine-hour (non-stop) flight over the Atlantic.

As the 707 (300) ascended into thinner air, our eighteen-month-olds and other small children cried out as their eardrums popped. Then they cried on and off for the entire flight, I guess that’s what young children do on airplanes, eardrums popping or not.


Intriguing medieval bridge houses in Bad Kreuznach, built around 1300. The town itself, famous for its spas, dates back to the Stone Age. In the 5th Century BC, it was occupied by the Celts and Romans. Its population in 1970 was around 40,000, not including 8,000 U.S. troops. (Photo courtesy Wikipedia)

We landed at Rhein-Main in Frankfurt. There, in our temporary lodging, Marty and I contracted food poisoning. In my opinion, that’s about as sick as one can get without dying.  Caring for two small children when that ill, very challenging.

I was stationed with the 8th Infantry (Pathfinders) in the Public Affairs Office at Rose Barracks in Bad Kreuznach (BK) for a three-year tour. We were in Germany to discourage any over the border attack from the East, and the Soviet Block controlled East Germany.

The Berlin Wall was the 96-mile zigzag border between East and West Germany, which included 27 miles that separated East and West Berlin and fanatically controlled by the German Democratic Republic (GDR). Their definition of democratic is certainly antithetical to most of the Western world.

The last time there were no U.S. troops in Germany, a World War broke out. Interestingly, as part of my job at the Public Affairs Office, I arranged Berlin Tours for U. S. military members that included the Brandenburg Gate, the East-West checkpoint.

(U. S. Army)

Our quarters at Bad Kreuznach were in an old five-story building circa 1935. Fortunately, we landed a 2nd-floor unit, as there were no elevators.

The Armed Forces Network Europe (AFNE) did not broadcast TV to BK, just radio.  Local phone calls were 25 cents each.

Marty didn’t bother to get an international driver’s license. With the exception of trips by taxi to the commissary, PX, or taking the twins and herself to the dispensary, she was stuck in our dour apartment with two two-year-olds — All day. All night.

      Lisa (l) and Laura guided up the stairs by Marty in  Germany, 1971. (Swan archives)

Our drab quarters in Bad Kreuznach, luckily, we got the 2nd floor in these circa 1935 buildings with no elevators. (Public domain)

At my new post, I was part of a small Civil Affairs (G-5) team that was the army liaison with local property owners. These were the folks whose farmland we damaged and chickens we killed with our tanks on maneuvers.  

I was also responsible for scouting locations of public affairs units around Baumholder, where we trained with our Allies.  As I had been in the rear echelon Public Affairs Office in Vietnam; I was looking for something more exciting here as well.

I requested and was accepted to attend the selective Seventh Army NCO Academy in Bad Tolz, the oldest and most highly regarded in the U.S. Army. Graduating from this intensive eight-week course, run by the 10th Special Forces Group stationed there, was usually a ticket for a below the zone promotion.  Little did I know it was a school within a school.

I departed for central Bavaria, careful to stay out of the fast lane on the Autobahn, in my five-year-old black Beetle, almost three-hundred miles south from Marty. I could call her, but she could contact me only in case of an emergency. Marty had access to my military pay, most of which was deposited by allotment, in the American Express® Bank in BK.

Upon arrival at the academy, the commandant congratulated us on our acceptance. Then he asked for volunteers who had a Top Secret clearance, some language proficiency in Deutsche, and a sinew for a special assignment. Those selected would attend a rigorous training regime. Yet, anyone failing to complete it would revert to the regular academy course without prejudice, the Command Sergeant Major promised.

What was it? Those showing interest were told, something none of us had heard of, Operative Protection Specialist (OPS), a solo assignment to shadow Operatives in the field. It was an undercover operation that came with $65 per month extra pay, excitement, and special weapons.

It seems there was a shortage, and DOD asked the Academy if they could recruit and train a few for these special missions. Throw down that gauntlet to a group that included some young, fearless, egotistical combat-tested soldiers, and what do you get? Twenty volunteers, one of whom was I.

Seventh Army Academy gained my release from Public Affairs back in Bad Kreuznach for an open-ended Temporary Duty (TDY) assignment.

You may remember from an earlier chapter that I was wimpy shortly after returning from Vietnam. No more. Eight weeks of Special Forces led rigorous physical, specialized, and firearms training later, I graduated near the top in the small class. Half of our group of twenty did not; some withdrew, were injured, or failed. My 6′ 3” frame was buffed to a solid 229 lbs. I became a credentialed and sanctioned OPS and sent to Frankfurt for orientation and assignment.

Chapter 27: Deceit​ in Deutschland​ ​

It was with a sense of pride that I took another look at my confidential orders confirming my new assignment, and officially declaring me an OPS, before heading onto the A95. I motored through Munich, and Stuttgart, then picked up the A8, and finally B428.

I took in the beauty (though the autobahn in not the most scenic route) while recalling some history of the last hundred years or so, in this part of Germany. During my six-hour trek on the mostly no-speed-limit-autobahn; cars flew by, trucks too, leaving the old Beetle that maxed out at 115kph.

I was happy to see Marty and the twins at our quarters in BK. She was impressed with my physique and anxious for us to have some time together. But it was not to be, I had just one day to spend. She was understandably stressed, and could use some companionship and help with the girls.

We were still involved in field exercises with the well-known REFORGER (Return of Forces to Germany) training, I told her. “That’s the price we pay when on active duty in the U. S. Army. This is far from Ft. Lewis not just in distance; we are patrolling soldiers who are patrolling us — a Soviet Block country that, with just one provocative move, would heat up the Cold War.  I love you and the twins and will, hopefully, see you soon. For now, duty calls.”

Before leaving, I purchased a beige 1969 VW® Squareback with automatic. I left it with Marty, just in case she decided to get her International Driver’s license. She didn’t.

The Wonder Of You by Elvis was playing on AFNE radio as I motored from Bad Kreuznach in the old black Beetle. Why wasn’t I in that sterile and safe studio in Wiesbaden introducing the King Of Rock ‘n’ Roll, or talking about Elvis’ recent meeting with President Nixon at the White House? Because I wanted something more exciting, something a little more hands-on in our effort to discourage East Germany from crossing the border into West Germany.  I could be doing a second tour in Vietnam, I suppose, if I needed serious excitement, but I had already done that.

What had I gotten myself into? It was becoming clearer after my final briefing in Frankfurt when I was issued a “Do not Deter, Detain or Disarm Document”* signed by the Supreme Allied Commander Europe (SACEUR) and authorized by NATO.

There, at the I.G. Farben building, I was picked up by a Federal Republic of Germany (FRG) driver in a black 1970 Mercedes® 220.  He recommended that I sit in the front passenger seat — not chauffeured — making me less of a target. Whoa, okay. In jest, I asked Karl if lying flat in the back seat would be even safer.

As we speed down the autobahn, I joked with him about a possible detour to Scotland to see the Rolling Stones concert commencing in Glasgow. He didn’t appreciate the juxtaposition and maintained his heading south on the A5, in the Merc at steady 130kph, on the way to meet my charge.

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Renown I.G. Farben building near Frankfurt, Supreme Allied Commander Europe Headquarters. Gen. Eisenhower occupied this building as Commander, April 1951 to May 1952. I was here on temporary duty several times in 1970-72 when Gen, Andrew Goodpaster was Commander. (DOD)

When I tried conversing with Karl in just Deutsche, I did not do well; It was embarrassing, actually. Thankfully, the trip was soon complete, and I bid my “Chauffeur” Auf Wiedersehen.

Awaiting me at my destination was a gray 1968 BMW® 1800 containing the very weapons I’d trained with in Bad Tolz, considerable ammo, a life-saving kit, a TAR-224A crypto radio, several hundred dollars cash in three currencies and a specially tailored 42L trench coat that would conceal a twenty-four-inch weapon.  And my charge?

I didn’t know the man I was to protect or for whom he worked.  Unassuming, he looked like a manager of a carpet depot in Tacoma. We would collaborate over the next few weeks and play out enough scenarios for a spy novel. He worked unarmed and carried diplomatic cover, both of us wore German civilian attire. I thought he deserved protection, just for the amount of cash he carried in Deutsche Marks, French francs and U.S. dollars.

Once operations began, there was no comingling.  We communicated just enough that I was cognizant of his missions and that we were vigilant of each other’s whereabouts.

I had just one job: protect my asset, including eliminating the threat — with extreme prejudice.  As for who would protect me, I was on my own. My only contact other than the Operative was a source at SACEUR in the I. G. Farben building in Frankfurt. This was classic Cold War.

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Armed with a D2 K-Bar,™ silenced H&K™ VP70z** with an 18 round magazine, and a subcompact SIG Sauer™ for backup, I stayed close and shadowed him everywhere, which seemed to be every club and brothel in the cities we worked.

By now, I knew my man (code name Hans) was a Defense Intelligent Agent (DIA), but I was no spy and never a part of any intelligence-gathering or recruiting. Eye on my Operator, concealing my hand cannon, ready to dispatch it in a split second, kept me occupied.

H&K VP70z with detachable stock and 18 round magazine was an advanced weapon, especially with its high-capacity clip.  The manual safety was deactivated on my H&K.      (Courtesy FOREX)

I could resign, if not under investigation, as this was a volunteer and high-stress assignment. Under normal conditions, a qualified replacement was required for me to be released. The Operative could relieve me at any time. No time was wasted with long and hyperbole filled efficiency reports. He rated his OPS to SACEUR with a simple: Satisfactory.

Craffe Gate in Nancy, France, built in the 14th Century to protect the city from invaders.  We also visited a few other countries in Europe.  (Wiki Commons)

During the more than three months of shadowing my operator, I never fired either weapon in anger. But I could do a mean stare-down. A working girl feeling me up was tricky, and some other encounters had forced me into revealing one gun while at the ready with the backup.

My weapons were always at condition one, as neither had a manual safety. I honed my shooting skills when off-duty, and was fanatical about keeping my weapons operating at their peak. Still, I worried about screwing up. I worried about my family.  Sometimes I vacillated from being lax, to getting jumpy and anxious.

OPS was an interesting, mostly exciting experience. My per diem was generous and without any scrutiny. I stayed in good hotels, ate well, and I visited several fascinating cities and areas that were pivotal in the second World War. But 100 days was enough for me. I made contact with my source at SACEUR and requested that I be relieved and allowed to return to my previous assignment.

Several weeks later, I walked into the Public Affairs Office at Rose Barracks, still buffed and back from TDY. I felt the presence of someone approaching my six.*** I swiftly swung toward him, about to execute a crushing elbow thrust to his neck and a quick and hard knee to his groin. I realized, just in time, it was the lieutenant colonel in charge of public affairs wanting to give me a hug from behind.  The reunion was nice, but I was looking for a way to get out of Germany. I had over a year left on my tour.

As for the joys of touring Germany, France, and other European countries, we did some (see photos), but my work, finances, and the twins prevented us from traveling more.

Marty soothed her loneliness somewhat by ordering lots of stuff from the Spiegel catalog, listening to AFNE radio, writing letters home, and seeing a psychiatrist. Taxi service — in a Mercedes diesel no less — to the hospital, commissary, post exchange, and around town was very reasonable.

Church built in stone on side of a mountain in Idar-Oberstein, Germany. We visited this and other sites in the country. (Wiki Commons)

Two great opportunities arose after I returned to BK. The first was a message emanating from Washington, D. C. for qualified enlisted to apply for a fully funded Environmental Science and Engineering program at Texas A & M University. Upon graduation, the member would become a commissioned officer.

I started my application immediately. It was a daunting and drawn-out procedure and a packet that contained about a dozen pages including attachments. I received lots of encouragement that culminated with the Commanding General of the 8th Infantry Division endorsing the application with: “Highly Recommend Approval.” Off the packet went to D. C.

The second was an opportunity, a few weeks later, inviting qualified enlisted to apply for Recruiting Duty, with a choice of station. That meant we could go to North Carolina and be near Marty’s folks. The other good news, if selected, we could leave Germany presently, a year early. It wasn’t like becoming an officer, but it was a great opportunity with incentive pay of $75 a month and a chance for early promotion.

After Marty’s two years, mostly alone in Germany with the twins, I was willing to and did withdraw my application for the engineering program and give up my chance to become a commissioned officer.

My recruiting application was approved.

*Document read: “By order of NATO and Supreme Allied Commander Europe: The holder of this document is on an assignment of great importance and shall not be Delayed, Deterred, Detained or Disarmed. Individual is authorized to carry special weapons and other lethal devices and is entitled to special access up to, and including TOP SECRET CRYPTO. If deceased, this Document  is to remain with the corpse.”

6′ 3″ 229lbs all muscle, heavily armed, says what he means, means what he says. From OPS ID (DIA)

Signed over the imprint of SAUCER Seal by General Andrew Goodpaster and picture and thumbprint of document holder. The Document contained warnings of severe penalties and imprisonment for its fraudulent use.

**Just released and known as a Machine Pistol, it had a detachable 8″ stock and was capable of a 3 round burst, and had no manual safety.

***Six 6 o’clock is directly behind, and 12 o’clock is directly in front, commonly used by fighter pilots and others in the military.

Chapter 28: Be All You Can Be

Only the best, the U.S. Army says, are considered for recruiting duty, and from those, fewer still are chosen.  But I was selected anyway.

We departed Germany a year early for my new assignment in the States.  Children still cried on the plane, including our own, but the trip home was better than our flight over, two years ago.

Awaiting me at Newark was a brand new 1972 Gremlin X V-8 that I ordered in Germany through a special overseas program and paid the $2,400 price in cash. Laugh at your peril.

It was modified by Randall Motors, authorized by the factory, and pumping out about 250 h.p. It weighed just 2,600lbs, had a Chrysler® sourced torque flight three-speed automatic, 4.10 gears, and HD suspension. The black sleeper had reasonable insurance rates, and it was the only V-8 available in that price range. It ran a 13.9 sec. quarter-mile, as fast any production car in 1972 including a base Corvette®, and slightly quicker than a 1972 Trans Am™ 455. I surprised a lot of people at stoplights in small Carolina towns and on country roads.

Dear valued reader: If you had rather not hear the details of my struggles with diarrhea and all the unpleasantries that 
came with it, including incontinence, problems at work and at home, surgeries and the like;  I understand and ask that you 
skip to next Chapter: "Kansas City Here We Come" I will discuss the problems I had with my colon in future chapters because it was a big 
part of my life, but try not to dwell on it.

Once again, I found myself at Ft. Benjamin Harrison; this time to attended Recruiting School. About three weeks into the eight-week course, I began having frequent stools, diarrhea.

That is symptomatic of what one might get when arriving overseas, usually not upon returning, as I just had from Germany.  It was almost as bad as the dysentery I had off and on in Vietnam.  I always tried to be near a bathroom, and there were a couple of times I didn’t make it. That was a real confidence-builder, while in a demanding course, especially when giving a presentation. I toughed it out and graduated on time. This is surely a temporary thing.

     We make Guarantees not Promises, Robeson Co. U. S. Army recruiters.

Call Sergeant Swan at 733-5000 or visit at 300 W. 7th St across from U.S. Post Office, Lumberton. The U.S. Army has over 300 job opportunities. (U.S. Army)

I was a recruiter in Lumberton, North Carolina, where we bought our first house. It was a pleasant town of about 17,000 in Southeastern North Carolina located on I-95, the halfway point between NYC and Florida. We were just 80 miles from Marty’s parents, her older married sister, and a younger brother.

My recruiting partner in our Lumberton station was a Staff Sergeant just as I was,  but outranked me by his earlier date of promotion. That wasn’t an issue until my health deteriorated.

We were a successful team. He was from the area and had been in the Army Reserve before becoming a recruiter, and knew the best places for Barbecue — argued by many as best in the country. As for my recruiting style, there was never any pressure, and that seemed to put the potential recruits at ease.

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We always met our quotas, and we received commendations for our performance. After a few months on the job, the diarrhea and cramps that I experienced in Indianapolis not only returned, but worsened.

I went to the doctors at Ft. Bragg, North Carolina (about an hour from Lumberton). After describing my symptoms, the doctor said my diarrhea was probably a result of the pressure of being an Army Recruiter. And how was my marriage? Are things OK with you and your children?

He scoped my rectum and sent me on my way with four Atropine™ (anti-diarrheal drug). The medication helped as long as it lasted, like two days, and my symptoms continued unabated. Unabated as in about six semi-liquid stools per day.

Naturally, trying to work while the symptoms persisted was difficult. Playing a role as father to the twins, who were sweet and loving, and husband to Marty who was stressed, was difficult and at times, impossible. She continued to see a psychiatrist, as she did in Germany.

After several weeks with no improvement, my recruiting partner and our supervisors in Raleigh were not understanding. How could someone have third-world type dysentery, here in the United States, to the point they couldn’t work full-time? They had never heard of such a thing.  I wasn’t surprised; seems the doctor’s had never heard of such a thing either. Fatigued, with bloody stools and a bleeding rectum, I returned to see the doctor. I had a perianal abscess.

A Proctoscopy exam using a rigid 10-inch steel scope through my raw and inflamed rectum was ridiculously painful.  The results were normal but consistent with someone who had been in the throes of diarrhea, i.e. inflammation and blood. I considered not complaining to avoid those procedures. The doctor prescribed six Atropine, antibiotics, and suggested sitz baths three times a day. The frequent stools continued.

I wondered what would be happening had I been in the Environmental Science and Engineering program at Texas A & M, (last chapter) instead of recruiting, and having the same symptoms. The Army might be thinking this guy just couldn’t cut it, wasn’t officer material. That might have been worse than my present dilemma. But I digress.

Within a month, I had a fissure and fistula of the rectum, which required surgical repair. Incidentally, while at Womack Army Hospital in Ft. Bragg for the surgery, the main architect and loser of the Vietnam War, LBJ, died. An irreverent patient, making a joke about what LBJ may have done with farm animals in Texas, had me chuckling. A good laugh is not wise when you’ve just had rectal surgery.

My coworker and officers from the Raleigh station came by for a jovial visit. OK, you’ve had surgery, now get off your ass and get back to work full-time, was their expectation.

No, perianal surgery does not cure dysentery. I was released without any Atropine, “Get that from your GI doctor, we’re the surgeons,” they reminded me. Once I started eating again and returning to work, the frequent semi-liquid bloody stools continued, as did the abdominal cramps, incontinence, and dehydration. Since arriving from Germany, seven months ago, I had lost 35lbs!

I’ve heard of and read about patients who were very ill, some with terminal conditions, whose relatives said they never once complained. My theory: If you’re not complaining — you must be too sick to, or not miserable enough.

Unbelievably, the doctors and my supervisors still assumed that the high-stress job of being a recruiting was the primary cause of my diarrhea. The doctor reminded me that my proctoscopy examination was normal (except for “non-specific inflammation”). Oh, and how was my relationship with my wife? Now not so great, she’s not causing the diarrhea, she’s frustrated because I have it. And you’re doing little to help.

Finally, the doctors decided to give me a refillable prescription of Atropine and some rest: “No Field Recruiting Duties until further notice.” I did better having my medication in ample supply and recognition, at least, by one doctor that I needed a break.

Off-duty from recruiting didn’t mean I was just going to sit home on my painful butt. WTSB in Lumberton knew that I’d been a DJ and asked me to do an on-air shift at their station, and I happily complied. A few weeks later, I got a call from a competing station, WFMO in nearby Fairmont, and they talked me into working for them.

I didn’t feel guilty about doing a four-hour shift in radio and leaving my recruiting partner in a bind. I had already signed up several people for the Delayed Entry Program that met my quota for two months after the doctor took me off recruiting duty.

Working as a DJ, I didn’t consider a job anyway, certainly not compared to 10-hour day recruiting. Plus, I was producing and airing Army Recruiting Public Service Ads and receiving “trade-out” certificates, instead of cash for my radio gig.

For a few weeks, with restrooms nearby,  I was playing Big Bad Leroy Brown by Jim Croce, We’re An America Band by Grand Funk Railroad, Kodachrome by Paul Simon, Give Me Love (Give Me Peace On Earth) by George Harrison and occasionally some oldies from Elvis.

I happened to be on-air the joyous day our POWs were released from North Vietnam.

Our first house purchased in Lumberton, NC. (Form a later photo by ReMax® Realty)

A couple of months after the doctors gave the order that relieved me from recruiting, I was given a PCS for the Army Hometown News Center in Kansas City, Missouri.

We had been in Lumberton for just 18 months. Fortunately, we had no problem selling our house and even realized a small profit. As for Marty, leaving her relatives; being close to them wasn’t as good as she had imagined.

After our household goods were picked up, we packed up the twins and all the other stuff we could fit into the little Gremlin and eased out of the driveway one last time.

Marty had liked Lumberton,* and I had enjoyed recruiting — both were now in our rearview mirror.

* 2019 update: Fox8 TV in High Point, N.C. reported Lumberton to be the worst place to live in the state, based on high crime, high unemployment, and low wages. USA Today reported similar findings about Lumberton, N.C.

Chapter 29: Kansas City, Here We Come

An old Chinese proverb says, “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” We quickly dispensed with ours — a single mile — with just 1,090 left to Kansas City. Depending on our AAA Trip Tics™ we motored northwest on I-40, passed through Asheville and the scenic Pisgah National Forest and toward Charlotte listening to Cats In The Cradle on WAYS.

The little Gremlin looked for prey as The Streak played, and we drove toward Nashville. We rested overnight there in a Motel 6®. We slowed a bit while enjoying the scenic southern tip of the Blue Grass State, entered the Land Of Lincoln, and headed due north while listening to I love you, I Honestly Love You. I sat on my “inflatable doughnut” for most of the trip, trying to ease some pain.

The twins were handling the long drive reasonably well but kept asking not, “If we were there yet,” but “Why we were moving again?”

You’re Having My Baby by Paul Anka played as we were leaving Illinois. Funny Face, I Love You by Donna Fargo, possibly the worst song of 1973, rang out as we headed due west into Missouri on I-70. We drove almost the width of the Show-Me State and, about 50 miles from our destination, tuned to WDAF, Kansas City where The Streak by Ray Stevens resonated once more. Finally, the skyline was in view, and soon Arrowhead stadium stood to our left-impressive. Finally were in big K.C. We rented a duplex in Independence, about 20 miles east of Kansas City, and bought a second car, a 1966 Ford Fairlane. Lisa and Laura wanted their own rooms, but when that didn’t happen, they were happy to learn, as were Marty and me, there were two bathrooms. It was a first for us. The twins had been uprooted twice in as many years, and I tried to explain why.  I was in the Army, and the Army moves me around a lot, and that pretty much means we were all in the Army.

They were overactive and inattentive, said the teachers in the kindergarten nearby, where we enrolled them. Maybe the twins were just ahead of their time — an anterior to ADHD?

Marty and I liked the Kansas City area, lots of friendly people, great barbecue, good radio stations, and among the best professional teams in football and baseball; the Chiefs and the Royals.  In downtown K.C. there were several war monuments, and it was home to the official WWI memorial. The cost of living was reasonable, and the gasoline embargo and subsequent shortage had little negative effect in the Kansas City area, except for the price increase.

The 217-foot tall Liberty statue declared by Congress in 1926 as the official WWI Memorial. Kansas City skyline is in the background. (Wiki Commons)

My symptoms improved as the doctor I was seeing at Ft. Leavenworth, Kansas (45 minutes northwest), had me on a regiment of Atropine and treated me with compassion. The doctor thought I had something called Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), then not commonly diagnosed, and had me experiment with different diets. He also suggested I see a gastroenterologist at Fitzsimons Army Medical Center in Denver.

I did well in my job as chief of statistics at the News Center, where we processed and sent news releases to a soldier’s hometown. The mainframe computer we used in processing the news releases was the size of a mini-van.

While stationed there, I took some courses at the University of Missouri, Kansas City (UMKC) night school, where I maintained a 4.0.

I had the desire to be well, not just for my own comfort, but for the benefit of my family too. I had another incentive to get healthy when the Commander of the Center prepared a special efficiency report for the sole purpose of recommending that I be promoted as soon as possible. The request needed to go through the “System”  at the personnel center in Ft. Myers, Virginia, and could take up to a year.  Nevertheless, it would come with me having been in the Army less than eight years; way below the zone for Sergeant First Class E-7. That’s the average rank one retires with after serving 20 years. But I would not remain in the Army long enough to see that promotion. After spending a few days at the nearby Richards-Gebaur AFB Hospital for another perianal surgery, rest, and a strict diet, I received orders for Fitzsimons Army Medical Center in Denver to see a specialist. Another transfer within a year, but this one would not include the family.

Just as I was about to leave Kansas City for my medical treatment in Denver,  Marty wanted to talk and asked me to sit. She had been thinking and wanted to share her thoughts with me before I left.

Maybe it wasn’t any of my work, past or present, that was causing my illness — but she and the twins. Perhaps we should just cut our ties after six years of marriage, as a way of improving my health, she suggested. Was I hearing this correctly, a divorce would be good, it’ll make me all better? Never heard that one before.

Surprised, confused, and saddened, I tried to swallow the lump in my throat while holding the twins tightly. I pried their little fingers from my legs as they cried, and walked out the doorway with a flood of emotions and what I could carry in a single suitcase.

Fitzsimons could hopefully determine why I was having 6-8 stools a day and incontinence one or two times a week. The diarrhea was so acute; I’d already had three surgeries to repair fissures and fistula. Agent Orange exposure causing health problems like mine — the Army and VA said in 1974 — was far-fetched, but I wondered.

I was processed into Fitzsimons, a huge medical center that had treated President Eisenhower. A Suite was named after him, and within it hung a robe with stitching that read: “Much Better, Thanks.” He wore it when meandering about with the Secret Service, tired of answering people about his condition.

Part of  President Eisenhower’s Suite at Fitzsimons in 1955. Note the wheelchair.   (US Army photo)

I was surprised when they put me up in his large and comfortable suite on the top floor that included a balcony overlooking the Rocky Mountains.  (Not true, of course, I just wanted to see if you were paying attention). He was treated for a heart attack, here in 1955.  Later, at a different hospital, he would be diagnosed with the same malady I was suffering from.

I, however, was given a nice two-person room that didn’t include a roommate. And the nurses, wow. One could think that, and even say that in 1974, as the “Thought Police” hadn’t been invented and complimenting a member of the opposite sex with, “You have pretty eyes,”  would not result in federal charges for sexual harassment. Granted, some of our evolving mores are good, like taking actual sexual harassment seriously, how we treat the disabled, and respect toward all people.

But I digress. The more I thought about Marty’s proposal, the better I felt. Not much was going on medical wise except for experimenting with diets and so on. They were in no hurry, and neither was I.

I was anxious to see the Aspen in the Colorado High Country in the fall and was granted a weekend pass from the hospital. A pretty girl was recruited for the trip strictly for the purpose of showing me around. We rented a car and off we went into the Rockies.

Although Ted Bundy is believed to have been mingling in Colorado ski country by now; we don’t recall seeing him.

The scenery and the weekend were great, exhilarating even, and I was looking only to the future.

Maroon Bells recreation area, Colorado, with Aspen in the foreground.  This was not a lucky shot from a highly skilled photographer when the conditions were just right.  It actually looks like this.  (Courtesy Atlas Obscura)

Marty had other ideas. She saw the credit card receipts that came with the bill and wanted to know what I was up to. Why had I rented a car? I told her. I also volunteered that I was doing better since arriving at Fitzsimons.

Although she had come up with the idea that a divorce might be the best for both of us. Marty’s mercurial temperament began to show as she backtracked. She wanted to keep her options open, and never expected that we would actually go through with a divorce.

I, however, had already done my grieving and feeling sorry for myself. I would move on and concentrate on the future.

The Twins under the care of Momma in front of Mississippi home, circa 1974. (Swan archives)

But I wasn’t supercilious about it. I worried about Marty becoming a single parent and the inevitable consequences a divorce has on all involved, especially 5-year-old Lisa and Laura.  Don’t Cry Daddy by Elvis played in my head, in my heart too.

Life goes on, long after the thrill of living is gone.  John Mellencamp

After two years of third world type dysentery, demoralizing and degrading my personal and professional life — my very being — I thought I was the one in need. But it was Marty back in Kansas City, who was making the most noise saying the twins were driving her crazy, and she needed a break. Guess I had been helping with the children more than I realized.

About a month after I left she and the twins for the hospital in Denver, Marty did what any stressed, but loving mother would do:  She drove Lisa and Laura to Kansas City International (MCI), purchased a one-way ticket, informed the flight attendants they would be traveling alone, told them to behave on the plane and sent them to my Mother in Mississippi.

As the twins wandered into the jetway, Marty turned away and — literally and metaphorically — never looked back. She had no intention of them returning and living with her again. They were five.  Marty had no contact with her daughters, nor would she see them again for another twenty years.

Guess I needlessly worried about Marty becoming a single mother.

This was the woman who had written me almost every day when I was in Vietnam, waited for me to return, stood by me during difficult times, provided a good household for our family, was alone with the twins for months on end while I served in the Army. She was the woman, I thought, who loved and cherished me and the girls.

I continued paying child support to Marty for a few months before I got the advice of a family attorney, and began sending the money to Momma instead. Marty was pissed. I went back to the attorney and filed for custody of the twins, Marty never responded, and I was granted sole custody.  Now the twins were completely and legally my responsibility, but they were still with my mother.

Nothing From Nothing was playing on KIMN.

Today it is not unusual to see an ad for Crohn’s, but in 1974, most physicians were not familiar with the disease, seen or treated anyone who had it.  All my colonoscopies without sedation had shown non-specific inflammation of the small intestine and some granuloma, but I had no ulcers in the mucosa of the intestines that resembled “cobblestones.”

There were not enough data, the doctors said, for a clear diagnosis. Maybe I had Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), a spastic colon, a condition usually aligned with someone who has a high-strung personally.  I prefer to call it Type-A.

With an illness, about the worst news is: “Can’t give you a definite diagnosis, don’t know what to tell you.”  Except that I might want to stay near a restroom and continue with the Atropine. Funny, eh?

When I was on a clear liquid or a minimal fiber-low residue diet, the cramping, frequent stools, and diarrhea were uncommon. Seems all that was required for me to do well — was to rest in a hospital on a strict diet, always near a restroom.

I had just received the sequence number for my upcoming promotion (about three months away) when the Medical Board informed me that I had been declared physically unfit to serve. My Army career was over.

famc_over-1Fitzsimons Army Medical, Denver, where I was confined until diagnosed. (Public Domain)

After several months at Fitzsimons, the doctors there settled on a diagnosis for me:          “Crohn’s disease.” An incurable malady that features abdominal cramping, fever, diarrhea, blood in stools, drainage from the anus, inflammation of liver-skin-joints-eyes, fatigue, immune system degradation, and sores in the mouth.

Thankfully, I never had all the symptoms occur at the same time; that is rare. But just three of four are enough to knock you down hard, and knowing the others are possible is stressful enough.

The side effects of early drug treatment for Crohn’s was sometimes more detrimental to my health, than any benefit it provided.  Prednisone that I  took, off and on, for the disease was especially precarious for long-term usage. It’s a steroid that comes with about a dozen warnings, frequent usage is known to cause heart failure, liver damage, and diabetes.

This is no, “You have eight months to live,” cancer diagnosis.  Certainly, it’s possible to die from complications of Crohn’s. But it’s more likely one will just suffer from its symptoms for a few decades and then die.

Before being officially medically retired in Jan. 1975, I visited the hospital commander for advice. Should I try to just tough it out, request a medical waiver, stay on active duty, and get my promotion to Sergeant First Class? No.

I was surviving on six to eight Atropine a day (a narcotic and controlled drug). Some of the best years of my life were made possible by those tiny white pills that kept my diarrhea manageable and my life functioning with some normalcy. (Eventually, while on the move, I was able to swallow two or three without any liquid.)

But there were downsides to Atropine: Blurred vision, euphoria, headache, fever, confusion, depression, drowsiness, dry mouth, numbing of hand-feet and so forth. I had some of those symptoms, but thankfully no more than a few at a time.

My medical retirement income was $421.00 a month, a pay cut of almost 50%. I was unable to work any demanding job or perhaps any job at all unless I was allowed unlimited restroom breaks and able to get frequent sick days.

I had just gotten divorced and had two children to support. I owned a 1966 Ford Fairlane® showing 212 thousand miles, a 13” color TV, and my clothes were mostly army uniforms. Naturally, I was forced to declare bankruptcy. This was not one of the better times in my 27 years.*

But That's Alright Mama because:

I didn’t have a crop that was rotting in a Mississippi field, too ill to harvest and lose it all. Nor was I in Miss. racked with polio, like some my age had been, and not able to farm at all.

Nor was I in Mississippi working a dead-in job and living with a guilty conscience for avoiding the draft as many did.

Neither was I in Mississippi sitting on a cold rough slab in the outhouse, having never heard from WAMY and let my dreams die.

I can't complain, but sometimes I still do. Joe Walsh.

Shortly after I moved into the Lido (my hi-rise apartment building near downtown Denver), wondering what to do with my life, I was befriended by an older man who lived there. He was Sam Trott, a waist gunner on a B-17 in WWII and presently a TV salesman.

Sgt. S.E. Trott Nov. 4, 1944. (Swan archives)

We had practically nothing in common except that we were veterans and divorced. Sam told me of the constant stress flying over the skies of Europe, wondering if he would be shot down before getting in enough missions to make it home to his family.

Sam made it back, only to lose his family because of his drinking and gambling. He warned me, whatever my demons, not to succumb to those evils. He is long passed, but I will remember him for a long time. I’m finally writing my book, and Sam, you’re in it.

After settling into my studio apartment in Denver, I enrolled in a program of study for an FCC 1st Class license, sometimes called the First Phone. It was a difficult exam, especially for those like me who had not done well in high school math.

Having this license was a real plus for getting a job in radio, and it was required for stations with 10,000 watts or more that were broadcasting directionally to have an operator with a 1st Class License on duty at all times. With the First Phone, one could be an engineer at a radio station. Wow, that sounded pretty impressive. Don Swan, an engineer? Mr. Pete Vaughn, (HS math teacher) would be stunned, no doubt.

Not so fast, I don’t have the license just yet.

After completing a four-week training course, I studied intensely on my own for a month. (Reportedly, about 40% failed the exam on their first try.) I went over, again and again, studying the trigonometry, calculus, and geometry that had to be applied for the successful completion of the test.

The extra work and dedication paid off. Under the tutelage of a stern FCC proctor in downtown Denver — I passed the one-hour-plus exam on my first try and obtained my First Phone. It was a great boost to my morale and confidence. (Five years later, it would be worthless, the FCC deregulated many of its rules for radio stations, including the requirement for the 1st Class license.)

Campus at the University of Denver. (DU photo)

Eight months after being discharged from Fitzsimons — sick, broke, divorced, and bankrupt — I was a sophomore at the University of Denver (DU) and a Denver DJ with help from my First Phone.

And during that period, the Veterans Administration gave me a 100% rating for Crohn’s Disease and service-connected injuries that resulted in $684 monthly compensation, a nice raise from my army medical retirement income, but I couldn’t get both.

DU is a private school where almost 50% of applicants are rejected. By comparison, the University of Colorado at Boulder — a fine college — accepted about 80% of aspirants. I was admitted to DU despite my HS transcript, certainly helped by an honorable military record, my military General Technical score, credit for lots of military schools, transcript from UMKC, and a lot of fast-talking. I would study Speech and Mass Communication. DU was no easy ride; I had graduated from high school in Mississippi, where I was an unremarkable student.

KLAK was the number one Country music station in Denver, the eighteenth largest market in the U.S. broadcasting on 1600 AM with 10,000 watts and 107.5 FM at 50,000 watts.  The manager hired me on the spot while I was meeting with him about doing voice-overs for commercials. I was offered the 7pm to Midnight shift Mon-Fri at $300 a week, about $1,300 in 2019 money.

Rock ‘n’ Roll was my first choice, but  I probably had a larger audience at KLAK because there were so many Rock stations competing for listeners (just one other station was broadcasting the C&W format). 

It didn’t exactly suck. There were lots of lonely and horny Cowgirls who deserved a deep-voiced-sexy-sounding DJ like me. And hear from them, I did.

I did the 7pm to Midnite show (Courtesy Capitol Records)

At KLAK we had a modern country format, I was playing Blue Crying In The Rain, I Will Always Love You, Don’t It Make My Brown Eye’s Blue, Have You Never Been Mellow, Goodhearted Woman, Rhinestone Cowboy, lots of Elvis of course, and Rocky Mountain High.

 I had a fan club that was always sending me stuff.  On air, I became known as  Don “Mother” Swan, a moniker that stuck after a Denver Post article on my volunteer work for The Mothers March Of Dimes. The non-profit who worked to prevent birth defects made me an honorary Mother.

At KLAK, I was a popular on-air personality and became the station’s entertainment director. I hosted Country Music performers like Waylon Jennings, Willie Nelson, Merle Haggard, Crystal Gayle, and others. I opened (as opposed to emceeing) a show for Jim Stafford (My Girl Bill) and Kenny Rogers (The Gambler) with a comedic bit at the Complex in Denver.  It was my first and last gig as a comic; despite being voted the wittiest at Hatley High School.  But:



Hard to read sentences; bottom line, my “Night Life” show increased ratings by 38%.

(From KLAK memos in 1976. Ratings from Jul/Aug 1976 ARB Seven County Central  Audience Zone, Quarter Hour Audience Estimate)


 At KLAK I was putting in about 35 hours a week and filed in for other DJs, including the most important shift: Morning Drive. For me, hosting the 6-10 a.m. show in a top twenty market was heady stuff — with an estimated audience of 70,000. The show’s regular Morning Drive DJ was pulling in some serious money, about $600 a week, a bit over $2,600 in 2019 dollars, and was soon on to WJJD in Chicago making even more.

Some of the most popular Country songs I was playing: Convoy–C. W. McCall; Before The Last Teardrop Falls–Freddy Fender; Chevy Van–Sammy Johns; (Hey Won’t You Play) Another Someone Done Somebody Wrong Song–B. J. Thomas; Thank God I’m A Country Boy–John Denver; I’m Not Lisa–Jessi Colter; Please Mister Please–Olivia Newton-John. The Dolly Parton version and the song she wrote I Will Always Love You is the best version (9 million views on YouTube™ as of  2019), in my opinion.

Outside the station, I was a one-person advertising agency, did voice-overs for some major advertisers, and a full-time student at DU.  A performative documentary that I narrated won a bronze medal at the New York Film Festival. I managed, somehow, to find the time, to play Col Forsyth and the off-stage voices in Authur Kopit’s Indians, a play that ran for several weeks with good reviews.

More top Country hits I was playing on 16AM KLAK: Torn Between Two Lovers–Mary MacGregor; Faster Horses–Tom T. Hal; Don’t The Girls Get Pretty At Closing Time–Mickley Gilley; You’ve Been Talking In Your Sleep–Crystal Gale; Mama’s Don’t Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Cowboys–Waylon & Willie; Lucille–Kenny Rogers; You Light Up My Life–Debbie Boone; Snowbird–Anne Murray and Luckenbach, Texas–Waylon Jennings.

Disc Jockeys from around the country were looking to come to Denver. I got calls from DJs in Philadelphia and other markets larger than Denver, wanting to work in the Mile-High City.

The mid to late 70s was a great time to be in Colorado during its surge in popularity.  You may remember John Denver, he touted Colorado (think: Rocky Mountain High).  People were flocking to the Mile-High City and the even higher Rocky Mountains to the west.

I happened to be on-air (March 1976) when the news broke that Andy Williams’s wife (Claudine Longet) fired several .22 rounds into the belly of Olympic ski star Spider Sabich in an Aspen Ski Chalet bathroom. (He died in the ambulance on the way to the hospital.) Williams (Can’t Get Used To Losing You, Moon River) was an immensely popular singer who had his own TV show and Christmas special.

He wasn’t in the rotation of music we typically played on KLAK, but for some reason, news outlets from around the world were calling our station for news about the sensational event. I was quoted in the foreign press, especially in Australia, about the shooting. I joked on my radio show that the next Andy William’s Christmas special would probably be held in Cañon City (home of Colorado State Penitentiary).

*If any of my writing ever sounds like I’m feeling sorry for myself or seeking pity from my readers, it is unintentional. So many have had it worse than me, like small children with incurable cancer or young girls with incontinence and all the other perils of incurable Crohn’s disease.